Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Mild depression

More and more I am able to see the symptoms when I am getting depressed.

It is the anxious feelings. The feeling of being overwhelmed. Not knowing what to do first. Wanting to just take a nap and sleep my troubles away.

Today I felt overwhelmed. I had the urge to begin bossing my husband around. [When I'm having that feeling, I start trying to control other people since I can't control myself.] But, I resisted. I thought several times before speaking.

I did BabyGirls homeschool lessons, fed her breakfast and lunch. Did what I could, work and housework wise and then I took a nap.

But instead of stewing, I got up and got dressed in a very nice outfit. Dressed BabyGirl and went to an event where I'd see a lot of people I knew.

I bought some Burger King for our dinner and didn't feel guilty about it. Dressed BG for bed and laid her in the TV room with a video on since she wasn't sleepy and left her there.

Went and cleaned up some.

And now I'm here and I'm feeling fine.

I'll take the steps I need to keep the anxiety down tomorrow. Basically, organization does it for me.

But now, I can sleep peacefully.


Lakisa said...

You'll be in my prayers, Sis. Sometimes it does help to just work through it.

Smell Goods Lady said...

I feel you sis. You did the right things, well what I would of done anyway. Do what you can for the day, and not feeling guilty. Well here it is the 29th, so I am hoping you are feeling irie.