More and more I am able to see the symptoms when I am getting depressed.
It is the anxious feelings. The feeling of being overwhelmed. Not knowing what to do first. Wanting to just take a nap and sleep my troubles away.
Today I felt overwhelmed. I had the urge to begin bossing my husband around. [When I'm having that feeling, I start trying to control other people since I can't control myself.] But, I resisted. I thought several times before speaking.
I did BabyGirls homeschool lessons, fed her breakfast and lunch. Did what I could, work and housework wise and then I took a nap.
But instead of stewing, I got up and got dressed in a very nice outfit. Dressed BabyGirl and went to an event where I'd see a lot of people I knew.
I bought some Burger King for our dinner and didn't feel guilty about it. Dressed BG for bed and laid her in the TV room with a video on since she wasn't sleepy and left her there.
Went and cleaned up some.
And now I'm here and I'm feeling fine.
I'll take the steps I need to keep the anxiety down tomorrow. Basically, organization does it for me.
But now, I can sleep peacefully.