Wednesday, July 2, 2008

It's all about me.......

I am going through a ME moment. I have been since April. I'm working on a few things, like my weight (lost about 15 pounds so far), my appearance (new twists and color to hide my gray :o) and excercising (still doing the yoga each week).

I really want to have another baby but I really want to lose some more weight so I'll look and feel better. I want to "like what I see when I'm lookin' at me when I'm walking past the mirror". My weight concern is strictly physical at this point. But I want to lose it before it becomes a health issue. My doctor said he's more concerned about my pregnancy age than my weight (which did not present problems in my last pregnancy).

I'm feeling really selfish and I'm not feeling really guilty about it. Only a little.

I just don't want to stop doing what I'm doing right now.

I'm going to enjoy this me moment because I'm sure that baby bug will bite me hard and I'll drop what I'm doing and get to work (so to speak :o)

I think my only concern is that I'll miss my window of opportunity (I'm 39) and regret it...but I don't want to regret not being in the best mental shape possible when I'm expecting...

Any words of wisdom?

5 comments:

femmeautonome said...

congratulations on your weight loss. one of my sisters is preggers and working on losing a bit of weight, too.

Good luck making a decision on whether to have another child now or not. Whatever happens, children are a blessing. I can see why you're tempted...I remember the picture you put up of your little girl - she's so adorable. I'd want another one, too!

Brother OMi said...

congrats homie. keep up the good work...

i say go for it. if it's meant to happen it will.

women have had babies at an older age.

Lakisa said...

Pray, Pray, Pray! IMHO, I can tell you that this is a decision you will never regret regardless of circumstance. Congrats on the weight loss.

Sister P said...

Thanks all! Can you hear that.....biological clock is ticking so loud I can't hear Mary singing "Work That" LOL!

I know its a personal decision but I always like to hear from others experiences so thanks again.

Don said...

sister p,

i think you are a smart and intelligent woman. i think you appear to be the kind of woman who arrives @ sensible conclusions. so if i had to say whether or not you will do what you feel is best for you -- i'd say, yes, of course she will.